Lately, I’ve been taking my time for-granted. I spend too much time with him and not enough time with my friends and other stuff that I need to do. So I made myself a chart on managing my time and will be experimenting with it for this week or so. Hopefully it works out. 

p.s. This chart is just a basic rough draft. 

I’ve said some stuff today that made me question myself; of who I really am, what I’m trying to prove to myself and to others, and made me realized something very important. I said that I would change but I clearly failed myself on that one, I’m so disappointed in myself and this is by far the most regret that I have, yet. I’m tired of pushing people away and finding little and unreasonable flaws on people that tried/trying to be in my life. Instead, I’m gonna try to find something positive and work on that and if it doesn’t work, then at least I know that I’ve tried and no more regrets and what-ifs questions. I think I know what I want now and I ain’t going to fuck this one over. This might not make sense to many of you but it does to me. 

*All of my private life events will stay private from now on. 

Camera Fund

My first two paychecks for the month of December all went to Christmas presents and I’m still short but, after this Christmas I don’t have to worry about much anymore. Therefore, I’ve decided that I’m gonna start a fund for a dslr camera. In every paycheck, I’m going to take $50 or so and put it in the fund, which would sum up to $100+ per month. Which means I’ll have enough money for my 21st birthday. However, this little experiment isn’t for sure yet but I’ll try to keep you guys updated. I might get impatient and just save up three whole paychecks and get my dslr in February. 

This is not a rant or a mean blog post but, rather a post in which I’ve come to realized that some things are better when you do it yourself. 

I’ve realized not long ago that I’ve been very bossy, well I AM bossy but the point is. If I want something done, I should just do it myself and if I don’t know how to do it, I’ll learn how. Simple as that. I’m tired of asking people to do things for me just because I don’t know how to do it or they do it better than me. Well, that is just history now. I can do anything that others can do, maybe not as good as them or as awesome as them but I still can do it, and I should have realized that a long time ago rather than being a brat and trying to make things happen exactly as I want them to be. Therefore, it will all be me, from my design ideas, DIY’s, photos and etc. However, this doesn’t mean that I will stop taking other people’s opinion or input. 

This has been another ramble of nonsense from my brain to yours. =]

Hello 28

Today I went to Macy’s after my class because I overheard on the radio that they’re having a one day sale on almost everything. So there I was, just browsing through some clothes, then before I realized I was inside the fitting room trying on a pair of jeans and the best part is, I fit a size 28 again. Out of joy I bought the jeans, well, that and they were so pretty. haha 

I know I said that I would try my hardest not to spend anymore money for this month but… 

so that GIF basically explains everything. 

ps from 130 to 124. 6 pounds 9 more pounds to go. haha

(The Unofficial) Forever 21 Employee Guide

This is gonna be written from my point of view as an employee of Forever 21. So here it goes. 

1. Assume every male employee to be homosexual unless otherwise proven straight or stated by that employee that they are heterosexual (theory from a reliable source)
2. On your shift, you will see at least 20 people (customers) with an amazingly awesome sense of style. I am not talking about basic bitches. 

anecdote: there was this good looking white homosexual who was wearing a black boots, super skinny leather jeans, red peacoat and hermes bag. He was very good looking and so intimidating but too flamboyant if you ask me. 

     3. Compliment your coworkers’ outfit, genuinely, but if they don’t look good in it,  tell  them so.

     4. Keep your eyes open for cuties. This place is bombarded by hotties of all races.    (Unless you’re working at a ghetto Forever 21.)

     5. Help the customers to the fullest of your ability. It’s part of your  job description anyways. 

     6. Lastly, Keep Calm and Have Fun While Doing Your Job. 

Still learning how to do this. 

15

Today I ate like a pig, yet again. Started my day with a banana and half a glass of chocolate milk but then I ate some alfredo pasta, chips and 3 cookies. At 4pm my friend Riechelle called and she wanted to eat at out. We ended at Gerry’s Grill (Filipino Restaurant) then had brick toast with ice cream at Guppies. I am so fat I know. I feel so fat, wait no, I KNOW I am fat. 

How am I supposed to lose 15 pounds if I keep eating like this?!! This is making me depress. Fruit and liquid diet is back on, effective immediately! 

Thanksgiving food can wait until next year because I ain’t eating any thing this year, well at least for the rest of the year. (huhu I really want so Turkey leg though) 

15 15 15 15 15 15 15 <—— that’s the magic number until New Year! Hello two times a day working out! 

Facebook and Twitter - On Hiatus. UPDATE

Before I go to sleep, I just want to write a post about me being hiatus on facebook and twitter. 

A week has passed of no facebook and twitter for me and surprisingly, I haven’t logged in once. I don’t really care what other people do now a days or what they’re up to. I’m just focusing on myself right now and that’s what I’m doing. I actually get more sh*t done now. It just sucks that my digital camera is crappy and my sister has it so I couldn’t take pictures. But it’s ok, it’s more mysterious that way and I want to see the look on peoples faces when they see it in person. 

I’m slowly getting the hang of this no social network for a month experiment. I’m thinking of keeping it this way. (Well let’s not get carried away now, it’s just an idea! lol.)

Back to the old routine

Since I’m trying to be healthy after my fatass week (I will just ignore today because I went to my friends’ family party and ate two full plates of nothing, but fat and cholesterol, relapse people, relapse! lol) I’ve realized that I need to start going to sleep early again like I used to because I’ve been breaking out like crazy lately. I used to go to sleep no later than 11 PM on weekdays. Therefore, I will do that once again. Which means I have to do everything before 11; homework, reading, DIYs, working out and etc. I just hope that this will make my face the way it looked like a year ago or if not, at least clearer than right now. 

Oh look it’s already 11 PM. Well I guess it’s time for bed. Goodnight. 

tyleroakley:

(Things I still quote.)

This is gonna be me until I lose 15lbs! Let’s do this! 

Dangerously Swiping

In the span of exactly 1 week and 1 day, I’ve managed to spend $615 on clothes and food. This is ridiculous for a college student who is broke and barely started working again. I absolutely think that I am in need of cutting my card into two, just like in the movie Shopaholic. (excuse my reference, I like the movie, so shut up! haha.) Anyways, I think I need a new approach on handling money, once again. 

I will try my hardest not to spend anymore money on unimportant things that I don’t need. I will make this work. Ugh I hate being broke! 

Birthday Wish

So my birthday isn’t until 8 months from now but I was just chillin’ here and I realized that I don’t really want to have/throw a party.

For my friends that are following me here might find this surprising or better yet, may not believe this post at all because they know I like to party.. Wait I love to party. I don’t mean to brag but y’all tell me that I’m the life of the party. At least that’s what I heard. teehee. 

But anyways, I realized that I’d rather buy myself a DSL camera rather than spending that money for partying. Even though turning 21 is a big deal and means a big party. I don’t know, it’s just a random thought. Well see, I guess. I still have 8 months to decide right? 

Fatass Week Conclusion

Today was the last day of my “eat all I want and no workout diet” for a week and I think over the past week I gained more than 10 pounds. No exaggeration intended because it’s true. My abs doesn’t even show anymore. I can’t believe the stuff that I ate this week. I even drank soda, but I didn’t finished it anyways. I am now an obese person! (Just kiddin’). I regret nothing, I think. haha. 

Well, tomorrow is the start of a serious diet, yet again. P90X + running at least 15 miles per week for me. Gotta lose all the body fat once and for all. I’m getting a head start for Summer 2012. I miss working out anyways. I feel weak and FAT when I don’t workout. 

Goodbye fatass week, hello defined abs. 

nieann:

recent!!!!!!!! 

Holla! lol